I Think Extra
I am Anuj, a young adult RCer from India. Our recent RC class inspired me to generate a small write-up on one of my patterns:
Overthinking is the pattern. An unfortunate habit.
I think “extra” because I don’t feel. I was not allowed to feel.
I think “extra” because it’s difficult to be in the present moment.
I think “extra” because it’s not ok in society to be spontaneous.
I think “extra” because I was alone when I was deeply hurt.
I think “extra” because nobody held my hand when I was alone.
I think “extra” because it’s prestigious to think a lot. A sign of high intellect.
I think “extra” because I am a man and I am supposed to.
I think “extra” because I am educated and I am supposed to.
I think “extra” because my caste is traditionally supposed to do that.
I think “extra” because it’s an addictive pleasure.
I think “extra” because I don’t feel. I was not allowed to feel.
Pune, Maharashtra, India
(Present Time 189, October 2017)